Showing posts with label thoughts. Show all posts
Showing posts with label thoughts. Show all posts

Tuesday, July 5, 2011

poem: MONSTERS

It’s a fickle attack on me
By things that do not exist
And like last time it will tackle me
And beat me with airy fists.
Until the sun rises and I purge
Myself of the fear.
Until I am one with the cruel surge
That lives off our bitter tears.
 
But the sun is taking its time
Banishing the night
And the shadows dance across my walls,
Little balls of light
Whisper of the crumbling
In my ears, rasping inundation.
Whispers and mumblings
Chip at my foundation.
 
Shadows tiptoed into my soul like vermin
Half-truths, unruly
Coil around my heart, squirming
Through tunnels, run through me.
Until the sun rises and I see through
The delusions of the night
Until I hear something strong and true
Not these spider strings; these lies.
 
But the sun, this time, is slow
To rinse away the lies
To dry up the doubts that soak
Me to the bones with fright.
Promises of a doomed me
Of every comfort thing
Promises that loom to be
The end to comfort.
 
I know the dark night of the soul
Comes to its end each time
But these monsters! God! They have a hold
This night is long.
Its grip is strong.
Will I ever see the light?
© 2011 Luz Briar.

Monday, April 25, 2011

short story: Draining the Humor (1)

1- Trying for an heir

Brigid shed her second wedding gown more eagerly.
The first husband, a stuffy viscount, had been comely enough, but he had the boorish habit of snoring after consummation. Not to mention, all the passion of a rooster.
But Bri was assured that her second husband, the 3rd Earl of Constance, would be different. The young earl had energy and passion to spare, much as he tried to hide both.
“Are you ready to bugger, Muffin?” she called from behind the changing screen. She checked her reflection, a plain woman made lovely by her white undergarments. She was no great beauty, but her body was attractive and her eyes large and doe-like.
The ceremony had been as strange as they were, and afterwards their family friends the Arteberrys had pulled Brigid aside. Lucinda Arteberry had given Bri a “love potion,” just in case he does not rise to the occasion. Bri had thanked her friend but told her she doubted they would need the potion.
“I prefer something less vulgar, darling,” Orion’s voice called to her. “Bugger is a rough word.”
“Very well. Are you ready to make love?” Bri laughed, slipping off her skirt.
When she appeared before him in her undergarments, Orion’s eyes widened. She took a seat beside him on the bed and they linked hands.
“You look wonderful, Bri. Better than in the gown,” Orion told her, his soft baritone whispering.
“Why don’t you undress for me too, Muffin?” she asked, kissing him chastely. “Please.”
He looked down, green eyes a bit nervous but he undressed with no hesitation. They were both down to their underwear and Bri sat on his lap now, grabbing a hand and guiding it to her half-exposed breasts. For a moment, Orion seemed transfixed, as he massaged them. Bri was loosening her own corset, too eager to stay dressed. Suddenly, Orion was helping her unlace with ease.
“Hm, have you had practice with this?” she teased him.
“On my own corset,” he stopped himself.
Bri’s laugh bubbled up. She knew of Orion’s ‘Reanna’ disguise and thought it was very amusing. She also thought her husband made a fair lady. He was thin but slightly muscled, with light hair and moss green eyes. His smile was gorgeous and many women envied Bri passionately.
Bri turned around now that her breasts were exposed, and she ran a hand through Orion’s hair before she kissed him with some force. He gave in and returned the kiss with vigor. They were aiming for an heir, so Bri would do everything in her power to rouse her husband. She was reaching the end of her childbearing years, after all. They needed to act quickly.
**
They both lay breathless in bed afterwards, kissing and clinging to one another.
“Brigid,” Orion panted. “I want to live up to m wedding vows…I want you to know this.”
“Muffin, I know you love me. There’s no need to—“
“No, darling. The last thing you need is a repeat of your last marriage—“
“I think a repeat would be hard to reproduce. You would not be able to divorce me for a—“
“Please, Brigid,” he grabbed her hand. “Believe me. I will lay with no other but you.”
“Lovey-Muffin—“
Orion pulled Bri to him. She was instantly lulling off in his strong, gentle embrace.
“Because I prefer gentlemen you think I cannot keep my vow…” he whispered with a tinge of sadness.
“I doubt that you should keep that particular vow, Muffin…”
Bri felt that they may have succeeded tonight, so she let the topic float away as she dozed in her husband’s arms.
She would ask him why exactly he would wish to stay faithful when his wife insisted it was not necessary. He was virtuous, she knew. But he had a lover up until recently and she had not minded sharing him in that way, knowing that emotionally he was all hers.
But at times she wondered what was spinning through his head.
(A/N: Leave feedback/responses/comments pretty please! Brand new story here.)
© 2011 Luz Briar. All Characters, Plotlines and Settings belong to the author!  Alright, I suppose I don’t own England or the Victorian era, but you know what I mean. Steal and I will come after you.

Sunday, February 20, 2011

Excerpts and previews…?

A writer doesn’t become published by being a private person. (Unless you’re Emily Dickenson, but seeing as I am definitely NOT a Dickenson, and much more of a shameless self-promoter we’ll exclude her from our thoughts.) Obviously, as an artist I need an audience of some sort. I don’t crave a stadium full of screaming fans (mostly because I’m not a rock star), but I do crave feedback of all kind. My problem comes with the fact that I am extremely private in most things.

That is why I have decided I would like to share bits and excerpts from my fiction on this blog.

But before I do this I need to know that people will read or even just visit my blog. I don’t want to be posting for no one as that tends to make me feel like an idiot.

This blog has so far been a home for my (polished) poetry, artwork and (crude) comics. But my real love is fiction and I would like to show it here if people are willing.

So, I ask a favor of you. Let me know that you are here, looking at BriarProse, and I will give you samples/excerpts from my work. Like any writer, I cannot guarantee you will always adore what I write, but I will toot my own horn and promise I am never boring. Trust me there.

So, what is it? Are you there? Are you reading? Let me know.  Click a response, leave a comment, send me a death threat. Whatever tickles your fancy.

Gifts; without reception

(Gifts without reception…)

Monday, November 29, 2010

poem-Carrion Feast!

carrion feast
I will feast on carrion comfort
I will feast without utensils
For the dark night of the soul has set
A table for me complete with pencil
To catalogue all that I digest
I have crept furtively into your dining hall
The one you call Holy
And know the fruits on my plate
Will bring death, but yours are gall
and so
Call me Hyena
Call me Vulture
Call me Hyena
Say I falter
But you will not tell me
What I eat.
Rather I feast on carrion comfort
And chew with mouth agape
Than sit at your table of forbidden fruit
And suffer eternity in wait
For the scraps at your jealous lord’s foot
I have tasted the salt of my own starving tongue
As I obeyed your god
'Sit, Slave, be good, be calm
Eat when I say it's time,'
Which it shall never be.
Call me Hyena
Call me Vulture
Call me Hyena
Say I falter
But you will not tell me
What I eat.
What decayed matter is this,
That I eat to-night
On the dark hours exists
A hunger, a plight
Does this dish of death spell "weak"
Weak to eat what's at one's feet
To entertain the tray--
what decayed matter is it
that I now masticate
In my hours of darkest
Desperation, I say
Does this morbid meal spell "frail"
Frail with imperfect fatigue
You entertained the tray--
Ask your god
did he not
make me this way?

(c)2010 LuzBriar